Today has been a more successful day, after so much stress yesterday evening that I picked up the baby and went out for an hour long walk in the snow and wind and rain. It started with one of Jenna's world class hissy fits, and got worse from there really. I don't know - my head tells me that there must be a way to fix it but my heart tells me that she doesn't need "fixing", just for us all to hang on in there as she figures out this stage.
We have kept things peaceful today, hung out at home, kept the games and DVDs away out of sight, and counted very slowly to ten doing deep breathing exercises when things got tense. It isn't usually between siblings, but once one has had a run-in with the parents, they follow up with some getting at each other. So we have got by...I got Martin to take that one this morning, when I was trying to sign on with the baby sitting on the keyboard nursing. Then of course there has been play, lots of play. Some more sorting (and reading) of word flash cards (which Jenna chose when out with Grandma, and loves ridiculously in spite of my best efforts at hiding the things). Baking of banana cookies - which I'd give you the recipe of if I ever measured anything. And of roast vegetables, which I have to share a picture of for the sheer glory of the colours of that squash and beetroot.
So that's today over with. I wish I didn't see it like that, but for now we take what we can get. Jenna has gone out to a sports session at the gym with mum, and when she gets back we will be eating those sunset colours and heading off for bed. Perhaps tomorrow will bring a little more light with it?