Has it really been so very long?  The memories are so fresh and *real*.  Like a heavy rock that my experience of motherhood has swirled and flowed around.  The weight no longer crushes me but *oh* there is still that little blank spot felt like the gap where a tooth should be, like a blind spot in my peripheral vision.  How this day creeps up on me!
Today, there is no pain in grieving.  A heart's longing to see my baby again some day.  A surprising joy at all the gifts that little soul brought us.  A certainty of hope.
(Lael's full story - my unassisted home miscarriage - is at the bottom of this post.)
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Thinking of you today Sarah.
ReplyDeleteIt took me a long time to come to a place of acceptance when I experienced a similar loss, but many years on and I see reason, whether it is true or not...
Blessings and gentle hugs.
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(hug) Wow, has it really been 3 years??
ReplyDeleteRemembering Lael with you today xx
(((hugs))). A healthy sign though that the date has crept up on you.
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Prayers and thoughts with you.
ReplyDeleteYou are all in our hearts today Sarah xxxx
ReplyDelete(((Hugs))) A candle is lit for Lael hun. I so remember reading your post... 3 years doesn't seem that long.
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Holding both of you in our thoughts today.Hugs
ReplyDeleteThankyou, all. xxx
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