12 April 2011

Three Years Past

Has it really been so very long? The memories are so fresh and *real*. Like a heavy rock that my experience of motherhood has swirled and flowed around. The weight no longer crushes me but *oh* there is still that little blank spot felt like the gap where a tooth should be, like a blind spot in my peripheral vision. How this day creeps up on me!

Today, there is no pain in grieving. A heart's longing to see my baby again some day. A surprising joy at all the gifts that little soul brought us. A certainty of hope.

(Lael's full story - my unassisted home miscarriage - is at the bottom of this post.)

8 comments:

  1. Thinking of you today Sarah.
    It took me a long time to come to a place of acceptance when I experienced a similar loss, but many years on and I see reason, whether it is true or not...
    Blessings and gentle hugs.
    xx

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  2. (hug) Wow, has it really been 3 years??

    Remembering Lael with you today xx

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  3. (((hugs))). A healthy sign though that the date has crept up on you.

    xx

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  4. Prayers and thoughts with you.

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  5. You are all in our hearts today Sarah xxxx

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  6. (((Hugs))) A candle is lit for Lael hun. I so remember reading your post... 3 years doesn't seem that long.

    ((Hugs))

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  7. Holding both of you in our thoughts today.Hugs

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Penny for your thoughts? :)