I am feeling a little inadequate at the moment about my blogging, which I suppose is a symptom of just feeling inadequate fairly often in many ways for no particular reason. Particularly, I look at beautiful blogs by amazing artists, and think, well, basically all I have is my little diary with accompanying random opinions and amateur family photography... Hampered always by a series of inexpensive cameras with good resolution but no useful added features. But that's making excuses, since I am unwilling to invest the time in learning to use a good camera anyway right now.
I do just love to take pictures. I love to see the small details, and try to catch them. And I love love love these little subjects chattering and running and dancing through my life. I have never doubted that I can write, not serious literature, but real everyday language in the English that I love but terribly abuse in lazy ways. And I don't ever *seriously* consider why I'm blogging or who I'm writing for, because I have never set out to attract readers or speak to a wider audience apart from the simple connections - real friendships - from reaching out to other mamas drawn to a more earth-friendly child-friendly life. I am writing, primarily, for me. I am taking pictures, primarily, for me. I'm making art work and crafting, because it brings pleasure to me and to those I am making for, not because I have a big message about the place of art in our lives - and I'm writing about parenting because it interests me and connects me to other people and their lives and opinions, not because I have any idea of setting myself up as an expert.
Other people do everything I do, but better. The only thing I do - here or anywhere - that nobody else can do, is to be me. So these portraits of every day life, of idealism and failure and chaos and mess... These are what I put out into the world. Not to change the world, or make a name for myself, or anything more than to share. To be here, as myself, find my place in a community of parents, and learn what I can from every moment.