Life got harder by every usual measure, yet I am feeling lighter. Must be the sunshine. My best friend jokes that she is solar-powered - aren't we all? We have all had a fleeting but horrible cold, but bugs of the other kind are really freaking me out. Nits. Ugh.
I *hate* crawly things. The mere suggestion of them does things to my self-esteem that mean I struggle to even say "we had nits". My mum struggles with such things to a huge degree; she would surreptitiously check my head before she hugged me as a child, the pattern is so ingrained I am fighting upstream not to do the same to the girls. Mum, if you're reading, I think you were a hero for hugging me anyway, because now I know just how much it freaked you out to do so.
I've spent hours combing and combing each in turn, sitting in the bath til it turns cold, hugging them and saying sorry. I'm such an idiot. I don't want them to flip out too, I don't want them to feel ashamed or scared.
Another issue, that is huge in my head and tiny in real life, is that I have that conflict between the gentlest parenting choice and the safest most natural choice. This time I've given them the choice - do they want to let me properly condition and comb every single day, or would they prefer chemical treatment? I never enforce brushing. I was *totally* relieved when they all chose to let me comb, though. It's such times when I would usually panic and try to force my preferred option, so it was hard to offer them a genuine choice with a commitment to follow through and take them seriously. Thank goodness, they made it easy - this time, anyway. ;)
OK now we've got over the deep authentic heart searching stuff, and you can all stop itching. ;) My children, poorly, watching a film and cuddled up on a big floor-bed. Aw. Morgan just sleeps and sleeps when she's ill.
But see: happy stuff.
I knitted more cables. They're addictive. A baby dress for my shop, which again, I'd really like to keep. My garden is nice and shady in the heat.
We took a picnic to Attenborough: cue pensive picture of Tali with watermelon.
The sun is also great for getting lots of dyeing done. I'll take some pictures soon. But the cold has lingered longest for me, so I'm just not feeling very much like celebrating the everyday. I'm focussing on:
- saying yes, as much as I can
- feeding everyone
- drinking enough water
- creative stuff that keeps us all sane
- kicking everyone out into the garden at every possible opportunity!