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14 September 2012

Inside Outside and Everywhere

So...  I haven't meant to be quiet (ish) recently.  Pushing through a really dark couple of weeks left me sitting on the other side feeling just plain tired, and also rather more inward looking than usual.  I have spent a few days journalling on paper, painting, and following the girls around in their general craziness.

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I find it hilarious seeing them in school uniform - they so desperately wanted some to play Harry Potter!  I don't think I've ever heard children begging and pleading for school clothes.
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A couple of days were so busy the baby didn't even get as far as bed before falling asleep.
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Actually, generally Talia isn't sleeping so well this past week.  I was putting it down to a growth spurt, but she has also been more restless and not feeding very well during the day.  Then I saw little white spots on her tongue, and the doctor confirmed thrush, and I am so so hoping that treating it will return little miss wakeful mad creature to her usual happy self!
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Roo had a hair cut courtesy of Morgan.  Well, it was bound to happen to her sooner or later...  Those little baby curls are all gone!
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Jenna has started drama group, and done more handstands than I dare attempt counting.  She has written stories, read lots of new books, and made countless messes with paint and paper beads and other tiny things.  (Right now I am struggling not to find the creative stuff stressful when I am always the person who ends up picking things up - or stopping the baby from eating them.)
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I have walked the labyrinth in Wirksworth and left feeling lighter.  I have climbed the very very steep hill and realised just how soft I have become (and gone back to daily yoga as a result).
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Before you ask, it's apparently a portkey.  ;)
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Rowan has played with her shadow and hunted trolls under bridges.  Life is rather blissful to her at the moment.
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And Talia is practically a tiny toddler now.  Unreasonably quickly.  This is, believe it or not, my least favourite age: no longer helpless and dependant and lying still in my arms.  Not yet talking back to me enough to have a conversation.  But yeah, I can't look at that little face and be anything but right here in the moment, not really.  Look at that smile.  :)
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13 September 2012

Belated Yarn Along: something for me

Last night I cast off the big shawl commission, and immediately kept my promise to myself to knit something quick and fun FOR MYSELF.  I made this hat.  It's the free chevron hat pattern from Ravelry- here are my notes.
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I'm still reading Irish Fairy Tales by James Stephens (free epub).  That's all, for me, beautiful but easy simple bites of fantasy.  I am knitting like crazy and painting instead, feeling a real drive to create art.  I haven't felt the need to paint, or not this strongly, since my pregnancy with Talia.  Welcome back, artist self, emerging from the baby cocoon!
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12 September 2012

Rufford Country Park

We met up with some Green Parent mama friends today.  It was an incredibly joyful spur-of-the-moment change of plans, and a fabulous (but rainy) park day.
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Baby ate everyone else's picnics - and a bit of soil too.  People on parks often come up to me to helpfully tell me that my baby is eating dirt.  Thank you, yes, I know.  If she finds a cigarette butt, I want to know about that, but a bit of dirt not so much.  She won't eat much, it doesn't taste good!  :)
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Jenna and Emily renewed their friendship, and the whole pack of wild children ran around barefoot in the rain without their coats.  If this makes me a bad Waldorf mama, so be it!  Talia won't keep her hat on, either.
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Sand and sticks and soaking wet children.  Fresh air and sculpture and wooden play frames.  Laughter and "me too" stories to our hearts' content!  (I am *not* the only mama with embarrassing public toilet stories!)  One very contented Rowan who was loved and carried around by a certain sweet gentle big boy.
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Happy mama, happy daddy, happy wild ones.  :)

9 September 2012

Seven Days: and thoughts on this long Sunday morning

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1.  Pizza Hut after a morning helping out with a friend's garden
2.  Batik play silk: hand making happy
3.  Apples - the only real crop I managed this year
4.  Here comes the new car, same as the old car ;)
5.  Morgan's train track person
6.  A corner of our living room

Reading - Irish Fairy Tales on my e-reader.  Just about perfect for how I'm feeling (and my limited attention span) this week.

Noticing - how overgrown the hedge has become outside my window!  Bright green shooting up to obscure the terraced tiled expanse opposite.  The window hung with rainbows and tissue stars, bunting, stained glass and crystals, chimes and driftwood.  Two little figures standing side by side using the window ledge as a table; Morgan writing in her journal, clutching the key tightly in her hand as she writes.  Talia barely coming to Morgan's waist, trying desperately to reach, to join in, to see what is going on.

Eating - home made chocolate croissants for a very late and lazy Sunday breakfast on yet another day when Martin is working.

Needing - an hour or two (precious luxury) to paint, and even have a bath *on my own*.  Well, a mama can dream...

Planning - trips and adventures for our unschooling year.  Food shopping for the week (and a packet of Hershey's kisses for Rowan who missed out yesterday).  Lots of planning here, lots of beautiful new journal pages and rainbow fineliners and dreaming big and making space for new things.

Making - a knitted shawl commission is so close to being cast off.  I keep promising myself that the next thing I make will be for me!  Maybe this time?  :)

Feeling - stretched to breaking point and very tired.  Perhaps an afternoon out of doors will help ease that - or maybe this discomfort is a kind of growing pain, something new being born.  I am feeling - not broken - but perhaps on the edge of something.

6 September 2012

Windows into our lives

Looking through my photographs today, I realise I have been taking more than usual this week.  Perhaps the gradual crawl out of a dark place.  Perhaps the start of the new school year leaving me feeling a little bit anxious to document, so that if/when the LEA start pestering I can feel confident of my defence.  Perhaps it is the gentle push to keep records FOR the girls (rather than "about" them) thanks to Lori Picket's book.  Perhaps it is the energy and joy of the upswing in the cycle of our lives, the balance to the emptier calmer times when we do less and process more.  I don't know.  My camera is in my hands a lot, whatever the reason.

At one time I would have worried that the camera was coming between me and the moment, a distraction, stopping me from being engaged.  Instead, I have found over the years that the drive to capture only comes when I am more emotionally available.  And the lens helps me to really SEE the beauty in the ordinary.
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Yesterday we spent the morning at sling meet, then most of the afternoon between the living room and garden.  Tree climbing.  Reading.  Watching Avatar.  Talking.  Play with the dolls house and lego.  It was another good day.  

Today has been faster paced, more home-based, but much busier.  Helping Daddy change a bulb.  Train tracks and other puzzles.  Reading reading and more reading.  Playing doctor and using the reference books from the library.  Garden play.  Pottermore, French lessons, and phonics, taking turns on the computer.  Weaving.  Maths: rounding to the nearest ten and the nearest hundred.  Cooking (Jenna made lamb stew all by herself).
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Morgan:  "STOP IT Rowan, I can brush my hat myself!"

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I'm off to eat the delicious smelling dinner my big girl made, now.  :)  I'm feeling very blessed.

5 September 2012

Yarn Along: Jupiter (and a shawl)

I knitted Jupiter.  :)
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While everyone is processing that...  ;)  Look!  A boy up my willow tree, wearing a pink tutu.  Aw.  :)
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And here is boy's mama, helping me photograph the shawl I am working on right now.  I'm a bit past halfway now.
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Meanwhile in the (overgrown) garden, dyed sock yarn is drying on the line, and a batik shopping bag too.  That's a boy up the tree again in the background.  There is always someone up the tree when I'm trying to take washing line pictures.
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I am really enjoying reading again.  Oh what a good sign that is.  I have rather a pile of books in fact.  My e-reader is currently displaying the cover of Neverwhere, because I'm on a Neil Gaiman kick.  In "real" paper books, it's non-fiction:
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Project-Based Homeschooling, by Lori Pickert, is brilliant.  Since I finished it, I have put up a noticeboard for the children to pin ideas and requests for materials and notes about their projects.  I am trying to make supplies more accessible without allowing the toddler free reign with so much mess.  How I wish for more living space right now!  Anyway, the book is inspiring and is helping me feel like I am doing enough, and giving me ideas for how to facilitate in new ways.

Hey look, more yarn!  Yeah I know.  Obsessed doesn't even begin to cover it.  ;)
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3 September 2012

Not Back to School

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When did it happen that these children got so grown up?  I took this photograph for them today to mark another school year, more or less irrelevant for us but in other ways still significant - that universal desire that they not miss out on the healthy and helpful along with that which we chose to avoid.

No uniforms here.  Those are for playing Hogwarts in, and today for once there has been very little mention of Harry Potter!  What did we do?  Today was so similar to the last couple of days, mostly at home, mostly pursuing interests separately and together.

We went to story time at the library and Jenna came back with almost more medical texts and foraging reference books than I could carry.  They didn't work on their life-size human body today but they did pore through the books, commenting on cell diagrams and circulation, on digestion and how babies grow.  Jenna wanted the herbals and wild food guides because she wants to make her own Herbology book.  (That was the "very little" mention of Harry Potter in our day!)

A Lush newspaper came through our door.  The girls always take it in turns to read this, making lists of all their favourite things, and what they would buy if they could.  Today they cut the paper up, making collages of the things they like.  I wasn't done with it yet.  Hmph.
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They played Avatar, trying to master Earthbending (well, you know, martial arts moves and lots of stamping) and then running around in the garden with swords.  While they were rampaging in the garden I did some batik.  Mum came by and took Jenna for a walk in the woods.  The others came in to poke at the silk while I was finishing up, and crowded me at the sink so they could see how it looked when finished.
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We are full of ideas and plans and projects at this time of year.  I am definitely starting to feel better when I think of the cool autumn days coming on bringing the celebrations of harvest and fullness.  :)

(I am aware that this makes two day-in-the-life type posts this week, but the first time it was on my mind and the second it was on the childrens'!)

2 September 2012

A Few Days

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1. Daft cat in the hedge
2. Sisters reading to each other
3. Baby with the music basket
4. Monster collages at the museum
5. Jenna and Talia

1 September 2012

Today's Goings On

The children woke up this morning clamouring to do some maths puzzles.  Where are our workbooks?  We want to do multiplication!  (You WHAT?!  Um.  OK.  Whatever you want, kids!)  It's a Saturday.  I cannot break myself of the habit of thinking that maths is a chore I would never volunteer for, *especially* on a Saturday.

At the moment Martin is working from breakfast to bedtime on a Saturday.  I'm not getting used to it.  Saturday has felt, my whole life, like the one day that should not have claims on my time.  Since we started haphazardly and imperfectly keeping Saturday as holy time, working on a Saturday has felt like an especially huge compromise.

Perhaps it's the familiar pattern of our past days, that I am at home and Daddy is out all day, but the girls see Saturday as the best of times to do school-looking stuff from the moment they rise.
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(If anyone stops by and sees them sitting at a desk with work books and pencils, discussing the differences between animal cells and plant cells, I am not the controlling home-school mama forcing them to work weekends.  Honestly.  If they are doing multiplication at 7am on a Saturday, there is NO WAY it could have anything to do with me, and my maths teachers over the years would cite numerous failures to complete homework as evidence.)

After their maths-hunger was sated, they helped put some laundry away (from the Laundry Pile of Doom, which is still eating my kitchen doorway).  Jenna wished for a cream cake during circle time.  We decided to take a slow meander to the village to visit the bakers.  I am determined that Martin's work schedule will not keep us confined to the house, although venturing out with sole responsibility for the four of them still scares me!

While I was attempting to get clothes on to the two younger ones, and to at least persuade Rowan to wear *something* other than pyjamas, Jenna and Morgan watched some of the Paralympics; cycling and swimming.  They engaged in some wrestling which they assured me was play, until Jenna told Morgan to "get off [her] bladder!"  They then had to look up what and where the bladder is using the human body encyclopaedia.  They are making a life size human body model.  I am guessing I will have to help them add a bladder to it any day now.

Just before we left, Jenna remembered that we didn't do any painting yesterday, and for once I stopped myself rushing them out of the door and pulled out their journals quickly instead.  Partly I wanted to remember to go at their pace and that it isn't a race to get things done.  Mostly I wanted the painting to have an empty house to dry in.  ;)
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When we got back from our jaunt we were all pretty tired, and Morgan had impressive grazes on all four limbs from tripping over her own feet (at speed).  We played the new space board game we found in a charity shop, and spent a while discussing why Pluto is no longer classed as a planet.  I did some work on a batik playsilk, with small "helpers" in and out of the kitchen.  They watched a couple of episodes of Avatar.  I separated warring factions after some "earthbending" turned into a contact sport...  And Jenna read a couple of Rowan's favourite books to her.
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They took it in turns to use the computer.  Jenna wanted to play on a geometry site, and use the 3D model solar system.  Morgan did some number games on Sesame Street.  Rowan played on Poisson Rouge, and the others hung over her shoulder offering suggestions and trying to remember words in French.  They had a contest to see who could remember all the parts of the body, and Morgan won.  I made nachos for them to coax them away from the game, which was getting push-and-shove competitive.  The fighting is pretty intense at the moment, but today was actually fairly calm - probably because they had so many other things they wanted to do!

More Paralympics were the background noise to a long stint with the human body book, a lift-the-flap book about the Solar System, and old Atlas, a few board books, and a baby sign book.  This week Jenna and Morgan have both done more reading than in the previous month.  Books are *everywhere* right now, and trying to corral them back on their shelves is a fruitless effort.

Jenna came and made the tomato sauce for dinner, and Rowan kept going back and forth and leaving the gate open for Talia to attempt Operation Eat Cat Food.  They are not done yet.  Jenna has another book out and is talking about the atmosphere.  Morgan and Rowan are semi-bickering (as close as it gets to co-operating at the moment) over the dolls house and Sylvanians.  Talia is banging a spoon on an empty mug with great enthusiasm.  Avatar is queued up on Netflix but isn't playing right now (and pretty soon it's getting turned over to Doctor Who - whoop)!  The Jenna-size body model they are making is still out, though every time Talia shows an interest in it I get palpitations.

This is what unschooling is like for us.  And yet, at the same time, it isn't.  Today is so ordinary, so typical, in many ways.  In other ways it is like no day we have ever had.  Things seem to cycle here - looking like nothing at all, then a few weeks later looking like a full time 24/7 education and a half.  Jenna will voluntarily read a chapter book a day for a week, gorging an entire series, and then will resist reading so much as a product label for a few days more.  The interests that carry them through project after project, some barely surface research and some lasting months and years, change as quickly as do these four marvellous little explorers.

I didn't set out to say anything in particular today, so I'll leave it there, just a flavour of our lives together, a glimpse into the best just as you often get to see my worst.  And a picture of Morgan at the museum yesterday, pondering seriously the importance of getting the right crayon for the job!
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